#MyLeftBoob Chronicles: #Chemo Day 92: Beginning of the End

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It’s 8 days post chemo #7 and I’m excited there’s only one more left!

I’m finally starting to feel a little better today after a week of extreme pain in my joints, watery eyes, numbness in my feet and overwhelming fatigue. I don’t like to update when I’m in so much pain and an emotional blubbering mess, which has been my state this past week, but I’m glad to be feeling somewhat like myself again today.

My sister came with me to my last treatment which was 7 hours long. It was so nice to spend time with her and I’m thankful for her support and sense of humor, always leaving me with a smile during this difficult time. And she bought me some pretty cool purple dangly earring to match my shirt! Thanks sis!

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Me and my beautiful sister Shari, one of 5 girls and 1 boy in our family. I’m the youngest of 6.

I never expected the Taxol to kick my butt as it has been doing but I’m looking forward to the end of chemo on Thursday, July 17.  End of chemo does not mean end of treatment though. It just means the hardest part is over. I’m only about halfway done. I still have another radioactive seed implant, another biopsy, another surgery and 6 weeks of radiation in Sept-Oct. to look forward to. Then another surgery to get the port removed. Yay me! If only the radioactive seed implant could give me special powers this would all be worth it! 😀

Then I wait until about December for my hair to grow back. Who knows about the eyelashes? For now I’ll be fancy and wear fake ones when necessary.

I met with my surgeon yesterday who said the surgery to remove the new lump and abnormal cells will be on Aug. 4th, just 2 days before our 21st anniversary. My doctor said as far as the fear and emotions go and worrying about each new lump, bump and symptom, wondering if it’s cancer, it does get easier.

She likened it to the over protective mom dropping of her baby at the daycare for the first time…. you call 10X, you cry when you leave and worry about them all day. But as time passes it gets easier. And then before you know it you’re sending them off on the school bus with some dude wearing baggy pants and a baseball hat, driving a bus full of screaming kids…. and you’re okay with that.

Yes, before I know it I will be one year cancer-free, then two years, then the Metaplastic magic mark- 5 years cancer free. After that the chances of recurrence go down dramatically and I breathe a HUGE sign of relief knowing I WILL be okay. I already know it deep down.

This is something I will always have to live with. It doesn’t go away when treatment is over. I’m now part of a new club, one I never asked to be in and one I would not wish upon my worst enemy. Cancer does not discriminate- old/young, black/white, rich/poor, men/women, Christian/Jew- cancer affects us all.

Even with everything I’ve been through, with everything cancer has taken and tried to steal, I am so grateful for all of the positives that have come out this: new relationships with family and friends, the ability to pay some of our bills due to your generous donations, stronger faith, a new appreciation for life, my kids and my husband, and so much more. I’ve been so very blessed and will not take that for granted.

I spent a good part of last week looking for a second job, to no avail, to help pay off $27K of medical bills. I love my regular full-time job that allows me to work from home, but sadly, even with my job and my husband working 70-80 hours a week at 2 jobs as a custodian, 6 days a week, we still can’t cover all of our medical expenses.

I’m hoping that by posting this update, it will strike a chord and someone will find it in their hearts to give, or forward it to someone who can help.

I hate to even have to ask for help but when I see people posting Go Fund Me updates for silly things (which I won’t mention for fear of offending someone), I figure the worst you can do is say no. If you can’t donate, don’t. But if you can forgo that $5 latte for one day and throw it my way, I would be forever grateful.

Anyone who knows me knows that for the last 15 years I’ve spent a lot of time helping others and even in this case I’m finding ways to help- by raising $2400+ for the American Cancer Society through Relay for Life during chemo, by raising awareness for early detection through #MyLeftBoob campaign, and hopefully by raising people’s spirits through my writing.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for listening and if you’re one of my supporters I’m sending you a HUGE virtual hug along with an even HUGER THANK YOU!!!

Click here to support  my breast cancer battle on Go Fund Me.

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